since the last time we met...
time,
who control them,
will there be enough time...
distance,
is it measureable,
can we mirror it...
truth,
who knows about it,
who dare to challenge it...
anger,
hot as fire,
can you hold it...
happiness,
like sugar,
will disappear without trace...
time, distance,truth, anger and happiness,
is it real,
search for it before they discover you...
p/s:
will time permit me to meet with them again...
the stone...
we were hiking up mount wellinton in the morning when this conversation happened between me and my freind. he asked me whether for what he is doing now, is he the right person to do it or is it he is doing the wrong thing.
to answer his question, it came across to my mind not to answer it in a normal order and make it something different. i told him that there is stone in a stream where from time to time no matter what happen the stone will always be there, firm and solid. at the begining of the stone life, it is ugly, crooked and doesn't have any shape. but as time past by, the stone get smoother and get rounder thanks to the water flow that flow around it everyday. the water flow could be slow and gentle, or maybe sometimes dirty, muddy, or maybe sometimes could be big and rapid. but all this will not move the stone even an inch and on top of that it helps the stone to get the shape that the stone should get. i told him that he should consider himself as the stone and the stream that flows everyday as the bigger society or the peoples who live around him and they are the medium of changes. through what he had and will experience later in life by dealing with the society or the peoples, no matter bad or good, sad or happy, it will eventually turn him into a better and wise person. the only obstacle that he need to consider is time and patient which is hard to get.
although this conversation doesn't really end up in a better way due to certain problem that occurs while we were hiking, it really make me think. it make me realised that in life, it is about realising things that happened to us everyday as part of our life experience. nothing more we could or should ask for but what we should do is to treasure it as how it should be treasured. make less complain and appreciate more. to my friends, to be a good person, nothing in life should make you feel disappointed but any disappointment that happened should be turned into a precious moments.
p/s:
any good deeds that we do to others is not because we want to do it but it is because others deserve it from us...
so what happen next...
to be acknowledge as a friend will consume a length of time which whenever someone look for it, it will not be visible...spend the time given for something that will benefit both...eventually, the end result will lead into a conclusion that friend is just a word that we use to describe a relationship. what lies behind it is something that not all of us can see and touch it. i'd encounter few stages where friend is just a word to describe the action of having someone with me to laugh and to joke with. the time that i have spend for the last 17 years make me realise that in my life, i'd spend most of it with stranger which later on
we name it as friends...
p/s:when we have friends, we look forward to be remembered by them...but why must they remember you when you dont remember them. sometimes we feel sad when someone forgot about our existence after they left us, but life goes on and the circle will keep on rolling........
another one that i want to share...
"To-day, man's opportunity to learn is almost unlimited, but an individual's capacity to learn has varying limitations."
Mahathir Mohamad,
The Malay Dilemma 1970
realising what is right...
sometimes we often think that we will have time to correct all our mistakes, done previously. how often do we think that the time will never be there for us to correct our mistakes if we could not be there for it. what comes tomorrow is what we shall see it as a gift. the past two days really taught me how to differentiate whom shall i consider as a friend, whom shall i consider as an enemy and whom shall i avoid when it comes to share the prizes that i win. never take for granted for what ever you witnessed in your daily life as it could be a valuable experience for the future. shall i say,
"experience is a good teacher. once you master the art of respecting it, you know what you can do with the knowledge that you gain from it."p/s:shall i say now,"lets hit the road and see what we can find at the end of it"...
when we look carefully...
"A sting from an insect can be as good a killer as an atom bomb. And a man who survives is the man who knows how to avoid danger. The man who can avoid all danger must be necessity be cunning and resourceful. The careless and the stupid will fall along the way."
- Mahathir Mohamad, The Malay Dilemma 1970
p/s:How true can it be when a person commit a mistake, they admit. One shall realise when to stop and when to proceed with their actions when they smell something is not right about it. some will consider, to learn is to make mistake, but how far can we go is my question. i never question people action, but i will keep on observing till it reach a point where i can make a conclusion on why it happen and how does it happen. to be truthful, i'm a person who rarely say good things when it comes to commenting peoples action but as far as i know, i never fake what i say about it. sincere and honest is a two different thing but it will benefit the person who knows how to differentiate both of them.
"The ego and thinking" by de Bono...
Thinking is often regarded as an extension of the ego. Clever children in school base their egos on being clever and on being right all the time. They dislike group work because they cannot then show the rest of the class where the good idea originated. When the ego and thinking are treated as the same thing there is a reluctance to be wrong and a need to defend a point of view rather than to explore the situation. A person should be able to treat his thinking much as a tennis player treats his strokes: he should be able to walk off the court complaining that his backhand was not working very well on that occasion or that it required more practice.
This new meta-system is very much in favour of the self, but a self that is based on a proper sense of dignity, not on an inflated ego. A person who dare not admit he is wrong inflates his ego but weakens his self.
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Passage taken from: "The Happiness Purpose," by Edward de Bono, ISBN 0851171257 Copyright © European Music Ltd., 1977
p/s: this was taken from
http://www.edwarddebono.com/PassageDetail.php?passage_id=88&, while i was sailing through the sea of information, looking for the right fish for dinner...
what ever happen today is for tomorrow...
mungkin hidup ini memerlukan perubahan yang seiring dengan jalan yang dipilih. perubahan yang bagaimanakah mampu memberikan kesan atau impak yang nyata pada setiap individu. adakah sekadar perubahan luaran yang menjadi kayu ukuran atau perubahan dalaman yang ingin ditonjolkan. setiap sesuatu yang berlaku akan menimbulkan persoalan dan tanda tanya yang mana jawapan yang akan diterima ada kemungkinan bukan lah jawapan yang ingin kita dengar. demi kerana ingin tahu, kita tetap menanyakan soalan itu sehingga kita lupa bahawa setiap yang berlaku adalah diluar bidang kuasa seorang manusia. tetapi adakah berbaloi jika kita hanya menerima apa yang berlaku tanpa mempersoalkan tujuan dan matlamat kenapa ia berlaku.
aku sering mati di tengah jalan persoalan apabila sesuatu yang berlaku adalah diluar jangkaan dan ia tidak seperti yang aku harapkan. tetapi hati ini sering ditenangkan apabila ia dapat menerima hakikat bahawa setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya. persoalan demi persoalan timbul setial kali aku bersendirian. jika boleh, hendak saja aku luahkan apa yang terbuku di hati ini. baik tentang kehidupan diriku dan masyarakat sekeliling mahupun tentang pergolakan dunia. otak ini tidak pernah berhenti berfikir tetapi hati ini sedih kerana apa yang difikirkan menjadi sia-sia apabila ia hanya sekadar buat tatapan diri sendiri. ilmu dan pengetahuan adalah untuk dikongsi tetapi perlu ada caranya. itulah sedang aku cari. pencarian bagaimana untuk berkongsi ilmu dan pengetahuan yang aku ada dengan teman-teman yang lain.
mungkin aku perlu berjalan lebih jauh di dalam usaha mengenal diri sendiri dan memperbaiki segala yang kurang. mungkin semuanya bermula dari hari ini....insyallah.p/s: the quest of finding "who i am" will be difficult but the experience is something that we will treasure for the rest of our life...
"tickling the tiger"...
to tickle an angry tiger will only increases the tiger anger...to me, the action of tickling the tiger is not important but to experience the thrills of avoiding the tiger "hand swing" with the claws is at its maximum stretch from reaching my face is what i'm looking for.
to my dear friend, i wish you all the best in what ever you do and i hope everything will be fine for you in sydney. let nothing stop you from achieving your goal. thanks for everything that we had shared together during those periods. had i done wrong to you consciously or unconsciously, my sincere apologies for it and for all the good things, keep it as a gift from me that will always make you smile...
p/s:no words can describe an action...even a good story teller can only help us imagining it and make us believe that it is real...
who we are...
when
we walk,
we look forward to reach a point,
when
we talk,
we look forward to end it soon,
when
we run,
we want to be the first,
when
we hide,
we want to be discover,
when
we swim,
we want to be the best,
when
we think,
we want to be critical,
when
we sleep,
we want to dream a beautiful dream,
when
we eat,
we want to eat the best food ever,
but when
we die,
what we want will never be what we want it to be...
p/s:lately, i started to get used to say this sentence to my friends "to be frank, we are living in a realistic world and not an idealistic world"...but how far can we accept this will be the ruler of our life...sad to see when some of my friends try so hard to be someone...someone who they never wished to be with the rest of their life...everyday, when we wake up and open our eyes, new chapter of our life will be translated in action, words, feelings and many more...
"The man who goes alone can start today; but he who travels with another must wait till that other is ready."
- Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)
Thursday, 1st Syawal 1426...
i would like to take this opportunity to wish my beloved family (sorry for not being able to join you guys for the second time), relatives, friends and acquaintances, near and far and no matter where you are;
Eid Mubarak, or Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
for all the words that might have hurts, for all the jokes that turned sour and for everything said or done wrong, from the bottom of my heart, i seek for an apology from everyone. eventhough time and distance divide us, i hope you guys will enjoy the eid as it should. nothing can make me happy rather than seing everyone that i loved happy. to all my companion in hobart, we'll be having a big gathering once everyone complete their exams and for those who are leaving hobart for holiday or for good, take care and good luck for your future life. and for those who will sit for their exams next week, best wishes and good luck. thats all i guess...and again, Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim brothers and sisters all around the world. lets forget all the dispute and make this year syawal a memorable month for all of us.
p/s: food for thought;
Forgiveness is important for two reasons:
1. Very importantly, for the after-life or the life hereafter. One forgives to seek forgiveness. Seeking forgiveness is a sign of humility and forgiving others is a sign of magnanimity.
2. Seeking forgiveness and forgiving others brings happiness in the worldly life - it's a psychological thing. In addition, forgiving improves relations with people by bringing good reputation and respect.
'Oqbah Ibn 'Amer reported that the Messenger of Allah said:
"you shall keep relationship with one who cut it off from you, you shall give one who disappointed you, and you shall pardon on who oppressed you"
- AL-HADIS, op.cit. #192w, p548-(
Forgiveness, by Dr. M. Amir Ali, Ph.D.)
http://www.iiie.net/Articles/Forgiveness.html
I'm half the man I used to be...
Artist: STONE TEMPLE PILOTS
Album: Thank You
Song Name: CreepForward yesterday
Makes me wanna stay
What they said was real
Makes me wanna steal
Livin' under house
Guess I'm livin', I'm a mouse
All's I gots is time
Got no meaning, just a rhyme
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal
I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
Well, I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
Well, I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be
Feelin' uninspired
Think I'll start a fire
Everybody run
Bobby's got a gun
Think you're kinda neat
Then she tells me I'm a creep
Friends don't mean a thing
Guess I'll leave it up to me
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal
I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal
I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be,
Half the man I used to be
well, i guess this song will remain in my head for couple of days...i found out that, eventualy, no matter how far you go later on in your life...one day you will be sitting down and think back for all the things that you had done in the past...you will be in a state of wonder with what you had done and probably will draw a lot of questions asking yourself on "how did all this happened to me?", "how did i manage to go through it?", "what will happen if i did/didn't take that action?" and at the end of it, my interest is to know how does all this affect others around you and me...hmmmm,some wild thought that fly across my mind in the morning...
p/s: the bass line caught my intention...just want to play it now...
