letter by "A very frightened Malaysian abroad"...
recently, after reading a blog post from by pick yin...i found myself thinking on why do all this have to do with me...or should I rephrase it with "do i have anything to do with this issue"...yesterday, i received an e-mail from a friend with a copy of a letter by this "a very frightened Malaysian abroad" malaysian-concern-writer, the same writer who wrote to pick yin...
it make's me think last night on what is the objective or the purpose of the letter...i haven't talk to my friend who send the letter about this yet, but after reading it...the first question that arise from my conscious brain was "How should I accept this letter"...as a reminder (positive letter) or as a negative letter or should I just stand up and shout "God damn you"...
first part of the letter, the writer did a very good job on praising malaysia, what the government had done to him and how thankful he is for that...and after spending more than ten years abroad and have his knowledge about what's happening in malaysia through reading (by referring to his letter where he keep on repeating "I read that..., I read about..., As I read all this,...")i'm not so sure whether should i take his letter seriously...
undeniable, it is sad to see our malaysia current condition...but i never felt that malaysia is a bad country...and this have nothing to do with my bumiputra status...and until now i feel sad that people keep on holding this issue as a scapegoat reason and claims that this is a fact that we need to accept and live on it...yes, i agree...but what is the benefit of discussing something that will only direct us to an arguement...for what reason must we hold to this issue if we know that it won't bring us any benefit...
i'm a bumi's...but still, i need to struggle and fight to get what i want among my own people...currently, i'm studying abroad and i have to work to find my own pocket money to live on...but do anyone ever want to know about that...no one cares even the non-bumi's...what they know is i'm a bumi's and why should i bother to study abroad...where i should know that i have the privilege to study in malaysian universities due to my status as a bumi's but unlucky enaough, i didn't get it...maybe I'm the blacksheep of the bumi's...so what, deal with it...
fair enaough to me but sad to know that our younger generation is still being feed with all this information which i think it is a negative eventhough it is true...and at the same time, we say we want to improve our malaysia, we want to see our malaysia where the people live harmony and peacefully...
when i first touch tasmania land last year, i thought that i will deal with a different kind of life among locals and malaysian students'...but after meeting with some of them here...the scenario was different...some of them still carried the same mindset...i thought that, malaysian's who came to tasmania to study will have a different mind and look forward to change their perspective about malaysia...
but sad to know, even in tasmania...what the local's being told was, in malaysia the non-bumi's right to enter malaysian universities is being denied due the the "status-quo" thing as what being claimed by the non-bumi's all the time...I've been asked this question repeatedly last year and it is a tough call...on another scenario, when i introduce myself to the locals that I'm from malaysia...the first question that they will asked me was "so, can you speak chinese?" or "are you a chinese?"...sad to describe, but that's the reality...they don't even know that in malaysia, there are indians, malays, sikhs or other races...
people, times change...let us put all the mistake that being done by our ancestor behind and don't even bother to discuss about it if we know that it will never bring us any benefits...we are the younger generations of malaysia...the older generations are leaving us, one by one...don't let the next generation hate us for what we do...no doubt, we can't run from doing mistake...but let the mistake be a different mistake...history is a lesson for us, the future is our next trial...
p/s:sorry for my poor english...but i just feel that...to know about something...one should hear to both parties or from other parties to understand the situation...my words and thought are just one small concern...any mistake that come from me, i should apologies for the inconvenience...anyway, the letter did make me think, who i am and where i belong...
posted by fat_elephant @ 4:07 PM
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